So guess, this is going to be one of those gloomy ones too. Did not want a continuation from yesterday’s post but I can barely help myself.
I have been living without a connection for the last two days, Internet connectivity, I mean. Seemingly, beyond that there’s not much of a life I have. Had it been a workday I would not have noticed much of a void. Since yesterday was a work leave, I was kind of lost without being able to connect with anyone through my blog. Also, did not get to read any blog posts as well. To top it all, I have been keeping unwell too, for the last couple of days.
Okay, now this is turning out to be a ‘dear diary’ kind of post, so let me deviate a bit.
Through these days (illness and isolation) I rewrote some of the things I had begun the year with. The word for the year, this year, is ‘Relationships’. When I contemplated relationships, I thought of how I would strengthen my relationship with the people around me and revisit the ones who have been hovering close to my circle of trust as well. All this time, I had not considered the relationships, which possibly require being unloaded.
How often have you considered giving a second thought to a relationship that does not bring any growth to you as a person? Yesterday was my day of considering this! You know, some of those people who have been so close to you that they probably know you better than any of the other close associates, but then they cease to contribute to your thoughts, emotions and aspirations. How difficult is it to pull yourself from a connect like that?
Sometimes, relationships are so complex that beyond a point you stop contemplating their effect on your mind, emotions. They become an everyday feature and they terminate to influence your thoughts in a positive way. You become immune to the fact that they are indeed not bringing any value to your life and living. How does one draw oneself from that vortex?
It is often times agreed that one should get away from negativity as quick as possible so that it does not soak in the happy spot that already keeps playing hide and seek in your life. The point is….how long does it have to be for someone to realize that a relationship is indeed bringing negativity in your life?
These kinds of questions have been playing on my mind lately and of course, I don’t have any answers yet.